I have learned not to be bitter or angry.

I have learned not to be cynical.

I have learned that sometimes, no matter how hard you try, you can’t change what you have no business changing. All I can do is change how I think and feel about it.

I have learned that not all people are abusive.

I have learned that people love me, even when I’m dark, even when I’m feeling yucky and unlovable. I love them more for this.

I have learned to be thankful for the loving people in my life.

I am currently learning to accept that I DO DESERVE them, and that I’m worthy of such love. Learning, not quite there yet, but soon?

I have learned that things don’t always get better just because I did the right things; the only way out is to get out.

I have learned that toxic people, spill onto us until we feel it, live it, breath it; but only if we let them. They don’t want to do this, they are sick. I have learned they don’t need my help, and that they would eventually destroy me if I kept trying.

I have learned it’s okay to demand what I want and not pay for it, one way or another. It’s okay to love and want to be loved back without pain.

I have learned that dealing with unpleasant things is just a fact of life. Pushing them away, ignoring or covering them up only make them grow and become monsters.

I have learned that fear is not necessarily a burden, if steps are taken to keep safe.

I have learned that I still have fear and I can’t just say I don’t, I do. I am dealing with it and I hope someday, to have less fear.

I have learned that gut feeling is usually right but we don’t always listen to this gift.

I have learned that I think waaaayyyyy too much.

I have learned that it is ok to be me, that I am what I am, no apologies, no regrets.

I have learned that it is just a fact of my life that awful things have happened, not be be ashamed anymore, to move on and never let them happen again.

I have learned not to feel responsible for other people’s actions. What I am responsible for, is how I choose to deal with these actions.

I have learned that this journey is hard, sometimes easy but never dull. I have decided that who I want on this journey is my choice, and they’d better be darn good or they aren’t coming

I have learned that I love laughter.

I have learned that even the hard stuff is worth it, because at least I still am here tomorrow.